The Road Up Ahead
by: Abolqaz Bin Anuar

I had just spent 2 hours of my time, watching the Malaysian parliament debating on 'youtube', rather than handling the important issues that needed to be resolve in this country of ours, instead most of the videos only showed how the politicians of both sides are using that time to come up with banters against eah other. With the things as such going on in the parliament, no wonder our country is in chaos.

I am now currently drinking coffee in a starbucks in Taman Tun, seated on the balcony as I drink it, I can see just a part of the Malaysian people down below bustling in the Sunday market. We are an extrodinary country Malaysia. The Malaysian people are a people of high tolarence. We are now withstanding the hurricane of economical difficulties that we know is coming in the coming year which will arrive in a couple of days. We have tolareted the increased crime wave that we have seen happened through out the year and we remained exceptionally content to keep calm as the policies of being Malaysian gets harder everyday. I would especially like to tip my hat to the non-Malays who have been as I see it enduring the stint of unfairness that they Malay leaders have imposed on them in a certain degree. That however comes with no surprise to me, because eventhough they are of a different race but they are Malaysians to the core and as I said all Malaysians have high level of tolarence to unjustice that we have been facing these past few months.

However I do believe that this calm is mainly attributed to the lack of understanding of what is going on and what is yet to come. Many Malaysian remained bliss to the fact that the recent crime increase, the low value of salary and wages, the increase in fuel, and basic condiments of food as well as the upcoming GST, and tol price hikes would have already been enough to encourage a revolution, a coup, an uprising and a revolution in other parts of the world yet here in Malaysia we carry on living. Remember the riots in London about a year ago, that was because the British government is giving them less, not because the government are taking from them more, but they rampaged anyway. That is more than a great example that I could think of as I describe the level of difference between Malaysian culture of how we accept being 'screwed' better than any other country in the world because not only is our leaders not giving us anything, but we are making us giving them more. Why shouldn't we compare ourselves with a more civilized nation, we are humans as same as they are.

The point that I am trying to make is that I sit here today fearing of what the reaction would be as we have endured so many obsticle put in front of us for so long that I fear we might fight more viciously when we are finally cornered, when we finally have nothing else to do, what would indeed become of this peaceful nation then? I do see a line of hope, a glimmer of light that might shine bright to help guide through the darkness that lies up ahead and this hope lies within each other. The Malaysian people of all age, gender, race, religion and classes would have to come together and defy the hardship that we are to face. Big problems are coming and we would come together and stop trying to swindle, rob, trick and bamboozle one another for profit than the problems would not seem so big anymore. Come together and face this challenge together, and we might just find out our true capability together as Malaysians. I am not saying we must not fight the oppressors, we must always find a way to not be slaves, but it would be much more effective if we do it together. I believe that recent efforts by some people to separate the Malaysian people by means of racial and religious difference is merely a ruse as they who are in power does not like a unified nation with one goal, because they could not stop us if we are united, it is easier to pick a part a divided people. They always focus on our difference yet, we as people of different race and religion are so much a like and that is an absolute fact.

I would just hope that the Malaysian people would understand this before it is too late, and I also believe that kindness towards each other could go a long way in the happiness of our people. I sincerely hope that 2014 would be gentle on all of us, and I would like to wish good luck to anyone who reads this. I would also like to say to the people that face the hardship to come, you are not alone, we are all in this. Pray for a better future and hope for the best to come.

There would also be a lot of people who would think that I am naive, but to them I say that, I believe in the Malaysian people with all my heary and sometimes when yoy believe in someone with whole sincere, thy would come through. For God sake please stop hating each other, we are all people. Let go of the angers we bear towards each other, and live kindly for the prosparity of each other. Once I remembered in a land far away, a civil war took place between the North and South of the US nation, and when all was done and the dust was settled they looked at each other with much regret, as theu lay down kneeling beside the dead soldires of both sides they cried, they weeped and they said, "I killed my brother with malice in my heart, hatred destroyed my people." I pray the hardest to Allah SWT that those word will not be spoken here in my homeland Malaysia.

No Islamic Nation Available

by Abolqaz Bin Anuar

Here is a question for you, how many Islamic nations are there in the world today? The answer is zero. There is currently no Islamic nation in the world today. The next question is what was the last Islamic country that existed? The answer is the Ottoman Islamic State that was dissolved in the year 1922 at the very end of the First World War. By this definition I, a Muslim and a Malaysian citizen would like to acknowledge that there is currently none of the Muslim nation that claimed to an Islamic nation could be truly considered as a Muslim nation. This would also mean that I do not believe nor feel in any slightest that Malaysia is an Islamic country.

The Great Betrayal

As I mentioned earlier, the Ottoman Islamic State was the last Islamic nation. During its peak, the nation or empire stretched from Eastern Europe all the way to the very edge of the Western Chinese Border (it was ruled by Mongolian Muslim at one point). However before the beginning of the First World War, its borders where from Turkey all the way to the Middle East which included Jerusalem, Cairo, Mecca and Medina. Also during this period, it would worth a mention that the Sultanate of this empire, had divert slightly from the teachings of Islam. Corruption proved to be once again the cause for an empire’s decline.  Because of its geographical location and trade partnership with the European countries, the Ottoman Islamic State was forced to include themselves in the First World War (A major conspiracy would forever be tagged with this event but that is not on discussion today). They did so in the side of the Germans. Even before this war, the empire was already at war with Russia (the main factor of its alliance with Germany) and because of that they had lost some of its territory to Russia. However the real clincher came in 1908, when a group called ‘Young Turk’ revolted and forced the government to be more liberal and democratic. This is a main factor of the downfall of the empire.

When the First World War actually kicked-off, Britain seemed to be bent on defeating the Ottomans first seeing that they hold the largest supply of petroleum, which was essential since the introduction of tanks and motorized vehicle in warfare. That is also one of the many lies that the history books are telling us. The main objective of the whole war was to actually destroy and divide the last Islamic nation (since the Melacca Sultanate was under the control of Britain, Philippines yes it was once a great Islamic land belonged to Spain and the Indonesian Island was with the Dutch). At that time the Ottoman Islamic State was still using the Caliphate ruling structure, but because of the corruption of their system, the revolt of the ‘Young Turks’ had lessen the power of the Caliph. The main requirement of the Caliph, is the control of the administration of Mecca and Medina (that is why, King Salahuddin the great is only a King). The men that were given charge by the Caliph of the holy cities were Hussein of Mecca and Abdullah Saud of Medina who are the cause of the great betrayal.

To take out the Caliph, the Brits first need to liberate Mecca and Medina from the power of the Caliph. To this they bribed both Hussein and Abdullah with the promise to make the “the kings of the Arabs.” They are also to be given wealth as a reward for their heroics in the war. With money and power as bribe, the both of them successfully betrayed the Caliph and liberated the holy cities from the central power of the Ottomans. With that and their defeat in the war, revolt began springing up all around the empire and the Caliph was powerless to stop it. They empire would also lose territory in Palestine to the British. The only lands that they have left are today’s Turkey and Syria as the rest was lost in the uprising of the revolution. As unrest was burning throughout the old empire, peace did not come until 1922. In 1923, Mustapha Kamal Ataturk lead the revolutionary plan to turn Turkey into a Republic a secular structure of government and so did he killed the last remaining country that the Islam had possessed.  Hussein of Medina was given a land by the British as promised and so did he declare it to be the Kingdom of Jordan and made himself the king of Jordan. As for Abdullah Saud, he vainly took his name in the creation of the Kingdom of Saudi Arabia and he became the first king. Both bloodlines still ruled their respective kingdoms till now. It is a shame that so many Muslim has forgotten this part of history. It was not the infidel enemy that stabbed us, but one who is also a believer. It came from within the brotherhood; they are part of the Ummah.

Malaysia is not an Islamic country; it is a country with the majority of people being Muslims. When Allah SWT gave Nabi Daud AS the right to be the king of Jerusalem, He did so by giving Nabi Daud AS a structure of the Caliphate, a governmental structure by Allah SWT. Thus I see none of its structure is being put to practice in the Malaysian government

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• 1.       The land and country belong to Allah SWT as the ‘Supreme’ owner. In Malaysia if we check our passports and constitution, the word ‘supreme’ is being used to refer to the yang di-pertuan agong. This is a huge mistake, and I dare say ‘Syirik’ (Number one sin in Islam, as to compare Allah SWT with anything else).
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•       The leaders of Malaysia are chosen by the means of election rather than the ‘Bai’ah’. Some might argue that it is the same; however it is very different altogether. The Bai’ah calls for the leader to be elected which means a council would name the best or suitable person for the job based on his capabilities and abilities to run the nation. He is elected but he does not asked to be. An election involves people who are not necessarily right for the job going on campaign to ask the people to vote for them. It is a sin for a leader to lead, when there is someone else better who could do it.
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• 3.       The borders of the country would be open for all Muslims. To be a citizen for a Muslim from anywhere in the world, one would only need to recite the ‘Syahadah’ and he or she would be a citizen. It would be unfair for people of other religions, but they should also be allowed to enter as a guest. A Muslim could enter the land without any documentation needed other than the recitation of the ‘syahadah’.
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• 4.       None Muslims born in the country would always is considered a citizen with full rights given. Even in the first Islamic state (Medina), the Prophet Nabi Muhammad SAW gave the non-Muslim equal rights as to the Muslims. He allowed them to practise their religion and lifestyle as long as they do not disturb or destruct the Muslim teachings. As for alcohol, is restricted to a certain area, or within the compounds of their home. No rights what so ever was constrained from the non-Muslims except the right to go to war in the cause of Islam. If the Rasulullah SAW himself did not restrain any rights from the non-Muslim in Medina then, who are we to do it to them today? Are our leaders better than him? Certainly not.
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• 5.       The financial institutions are not allowed to practise ‘Riba’ or interest. This is because interest would revert mankind back to the times of slavery, but a different kind of slavery. Yet all the banks in Malaysia make you pay interest for loans that you take. Making us all work to pay our debt to our masters the banks. There is no freedom in this. Riba is the third in the list of sins in Islam (after syirik and munafik), yet I do not have the freedom to not practise it to be a better Muslim for our way of life made it impossible to buy anything without paying it.  
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• 6.       As you could read in the newspapers, heard it on the radios and seen in the news, Islamic people around the world are being oppressed and attacked by western powers. Yet the so-called Muslim nation of Malaysia did nothing to help them. The government and the leaders do not feel enough to help other Ummahs as if we tried they would find a way to stop us. Yet time and time again all I could see the Muslims here do is pray and weep for their suffering for we have no power and no help from our “Muslim” government.

Those are the few things that I could illustrate on why Malaysia is not an Islamic country. If you look around for these criteria for an Islamic country today, you would not find a single country that fits this description.  When the Muslims from Mecca went to the Christian king of Abyssinia, they did not bow as the king entered the room. When the king asked them, “Do you not bow before your prophet Muhammad SAW?” They answered, “He is only a man, and we kneel only to Allah SWT.” That was the passion a true Muslim, yet here in Malaysia, the country protocol requires us to bow to the agong. With such fundamental diversion from Islam, how can we call this land an Islamic country?

I end this post with this, during my travels to many different lands the people I meet would ask me where I am from, and I will tell them that I am from Malaysia, when they ask me am I a Muslim, I would answer yes I am a Muslim, but please don’t think that Malaysia is an Islamic country, it is just a country with many Muslims but not an Islamic country.

  

Friendly Words From A Muslim to A Christian

I got into a conversation with a Christian on youtube, named "vonveezil2" I am shameful for I did not know the real name. It is very rude of me. But he or she posted me this question:

I have read your books. Have you read mine? Let's consider this. Your people have attacked everyone around them for 1400 years. Islam has never been preached but brought by the edge of a sword. Convert or die isn't the greatest of options for someone who's about to have their head chopped off. Let me ask you , is the Koran the perfect word of God? Is the Koran error free and flawless? Only with your answers to those 2 questions can this conversation continue.

So with that this is my answer:

First of all, I would like to say that I am glad that you have read the Quran and the Hadiths. As I said, I have come up against many other Christians before you and none has made such claims until you.

I will answer your question according to the order that you asked. There were two main questions but there was a mini question that was actually meant to be rhetorical, but I would take it as a question for have a form of an answer.

You said that you had read our books, since we Muslims have only two the Quran and the Hadith, I assumed you meant that. However if you did not meant any of those book than you are actually very far off from what Islam actually is. On this matter I say, that well done, but you read it with the expression of hate towards us. Anything you read can be nothing but hate. Check the proper translation for if you do, there are 604 pages, 114 chapters and 6,666 sentences in the Quran but not a single word in the Quran that means sword, so how could you say we are brought by the sword. Oppose to 426 times that the word sword came out from the bible.

In Islam, in the Quran spreading of religion by compulsion is haram. We cannot use force to get someone to convert; any type of force is haram. This very question was asked of to Syeikh Ahmed Deedat, a Muslim teacher, probably the best from South Africa. He was given this very same accusation about Islam by one Anis Shorrosh a minister if Christian from Egypt. The same guy who boast that there are 10 million Christian in Egypt. However Allah SWT gave Ahmed Deedat a wonderful and powerful brain when he answered Anis Shorrosh saying that, “you are the proof, if Islam is spread by force how come there is 10 million Islam allowed being in Egypt? Islam ruled India for 1,000 years yet when we the hindus took over Muslim was a small minority. Islam took Spain for 800 years but when Isabel came back they saw the Churches and the religion was intact. So I ask you what sword? When was it that we kill get people in Islam? None because to do that is HARAM, meaning forbidden by my prophet Muhammad SAW.

Today, this very day the highest numbers of converts to Islam are from the US and the UK. I ask you now, what sword are we using towards the Americans and the Brits? If there is such sword, if such sword exists it shall be called ‘intellect’, because in the Quran Allah SWT said, “Invite all, all into the ways of Allah SWT THROUGH WISDOM.”

Now, moving on you asked me had I read your bible. To this I answer a little, but not very mush as to remember anything. I study the Quran first, before I feel the need to even read the bible, I choose to study the Quran first, and in the Quran it said that a Muslim is not a Muslim if he or she does not respect the religion of the time before (Jew and Christian), nor if he or she does not believe the prophet that came before (Abraham, Moses and Jesus AS included, there are 24 before Muhammad SAW) or does not believe that the book of (Moses (Torah), David (Zabur) and Jesus(Injeel)) to be from Allah SWT. Therefore we believe in the teachings of Jesus just like the Christians do, sometime more than you do. For example in book of John and Luke there are passages that says that eating pork and drinking alcohol is bad. So many of you Christians eat pork and drink alcohol, so many of us do not. The conclusion is that in the Quran the bible is also the word of Allah SWT, but the bible that you read today was not the same bible given to Jesus AS.

The bible that many Christians read from in today’s world is a translated version from the English version to the language of their choice. However the English was a translation of the latin version which is also a translation of the Konae Greek. However the language of Jesus AS is a form of Hebrew called Aramaic. Therefore the bible of Konae Greek was in fact another translation. That is four layers of translation. Humans could not even translate a magazine accurately let alone the word of God thru four different translation. There is so many Christian people especially Catholics have converted to Islam because they say, that when they studied the Hebrew bible, it leads them to Islam. That is their words I am not making this up. People like Yusuf Eastes and Joshua Evens all said this. Now we Muslims read the Quran in the original arab. It is a wajib, meaning compulsory to do so. We can read the translation, but to recite the Quran is in Arabic. Not just that we have to stick to the ‘tajwid’. It is like musical chords that give us tones when we read the Quran. At first I thought what the point to this is, but as I actually study the Quran, I find that the ‘tajwid’ plays a major role in preserving the message in the Quran.

Because all Muslims are mandated to read the Quran with the proper tajwid, therefore we all each and every one of us have to pronouns it same way. A Malaysian Muslim and an American Muslim will have to read the passage the same way. Therefore if someone makes a mistake another will know. No one can publically make a mistake; and as for the translations to many languages, the Arabic checks out. All translations are accompanied by the Arabic text next to it, to confirm the authentication, and everyone checks each other out. Can you read the bible in Hebrew? Can the Christian form a unilateral language for Christians?

Now, on to the first Question that was actually asked: Is the Quran the perfect word of God? Yes. You see Our prophet was illiterate, he could not read nor can he write, However from the revelation given to Him by Allah SWT, in the Quran is said to be all things that has been, the workings of all on the earth and beyond, and things that is to come. In the Quran, Allah SWT spoke of true historical facts of things that have been, about the science of nature and all that was. There is a passage about the movement of the earth around the sun 1,400 years ago. Longer than galileo. He also spoke of things that will happen in the future. There is economics, family and the purpose of life. For all the mysteries of the world are all here in the Al-Quran Nur Karim.

As I told you about the Tajwid, I believe that the Quran is the most flawless book, that from when it was introduced until now, not a single dot has changed. There is no King Faisal version of the Quran. There is no new and Old Testament that was changed by any man, no revise version, annually revision, from the day it was introduced till this very day, every dot has been the same. I mean seriously how can a man revise the words of God?

Thus it is I have answered all of your questions both directly and indirectly. You told me that you have read the Quran and Hadith as I have assumed. However Allah SWT gives the light to who he pleases. If He chooses to darken your heart, even if I give you a million proofs you would not believe it. That is just the way it is, but I will pray that He would give you His (hidayah) guidance, for only He can grant and take away hidayah. Islam is unlike your Christian. I mean seriously how can confessing to a man, purify your sins. I mean even the King of Jerusalem said to his bishop, “I will confess my sins but to God not to you.”

Now here is an extra fact that I put in for you. When Islam first spread, the disciples of my prophet Muhammad SAW (also called the sahabat, meaning friends how nice that the prophet called them friends), spread the words and teaching of Islam until as far as they could manage. Soon it grew to a sizable area in the Arab peninsular. The Eastern Romans and the Persian would not have another power or nation that would not bow to them. So they launched an attack on Islam. The Muslims retaliated to defend, “for if they strike you, you are obligated to defend, but if they have stop so must you.” That is the word of Allah SWT. As a result of the fighting, both Eastern Roman Empire and the Persian Empire fell to Muslim rule. As to in Spain the Muslim fought for the Catholic Spain was threatening them.

Now another scenario about 500 years earlier, the word of Jesus AS was spread and thought throughout the entire Roman Empire. From one end of the Mediterranean to the other, Romans are converting into Christians in mass numbers. The ruling pagan would not have these Christians who they call a rat in their empire; they launched an attack on the Christians. To survive and to keep the word of Jesus alive, they fought back and eventually won control of the Roman Empire.

With that said, are we so different the Christians and the Muslims? Even in the Quran it is said, behold that the Christians will be the closest to you oh Muslims. This is my answer to your question.

The Truth if you like it or not

When God created man from clay and called him Adam. God then calls upon his angels and told them to bow to Adam. All did except for one, he is called the ‘Syaitan’, or satan to all. Satan said, “why should I bow to man for he is made of clay, whilst I and the devil made from fire. God was angry and he sent satan to hell, satan said I will take Adam, his children as well. That is satan’s promise to God, to guide the children of Adam to the path of the dark.

Many years later, Satan’s plans were on the way; but God sent religion for to evil He said nay. First came the Jews, the ‘Bani Israel’. But satan got them and turned them with greed. Then came Jesus a miracle at birth to set the humans right. But when there was plot of murder and deceit, God raised Jesus up to heaven and stops those who cheat. But evil Constantine of Rome does not want to leave home, so he used his power to gain Christian control. The council of Nicaea, he put in his plot, to remake the bible and changed the religion a lot. Thus that was the tale of the defeat of two religions.

But wait God pre-tale of the ‘praised-one’ who will come, and bring to the world the mercy of God, shall we call Him Allah SWT and his prophet Muhammad. Islam is the last defender of what is true and false; the mercy of Allah SWT for all mankind against the tyranny of evil.

Ask the sun and ask the moon, for they are the witness of history.

I end now with my last words. Remember what the Muslims is suffering now, is the oppression that once was done onto Christians. For all those who carry the word of truth is the one who has their face in the dirt of the floor. This is the truth that I am willing to die for. I pray to Allah SWT to give you the light. However when you read this and still remain a non-believer; it was Allah SWT who decides to make you believe of not.

All that is right and true in me comes from Allah SWT the God of all the universe and those that are wrong comes from me, and myself only. Amin.

    

  

What We Do Not See We Do Not Know

In the Quran, the book that is light to all mankind, God has said, “The knowledge of God is only for Him to know.” Therefore with that I believe that of all the things that He had created onto this world, we with only the mind intellect of a human are not meant to understand. However the things that we do know and understand could be explained to us by means of science.

For instance how the rain works by circulating the forms of water. How the earth orbits around the sun and the moon around the earth. These things are of course explainable by science, but if you would ask those men of science as to why, they could never give you an answer that make sense, or at the very least the one that you could understand.

Today’s topic is not to engage on the dispute between science and religion. No but I am merely writing this as for I have pondered upon an awe in yet another creation of God that has led me to believe that God, is the creator of the universe and all that is in it and for nothing He does is ever by chance.

Since the beginning of time, men have always been one of the most prolific hunters. Although we do not possess the speed or natural weapons that of a beast such as cheetahs an tigers, nor the night vision of an owl nor the sonar instinct of a bat that makes them such incredible hunters of the wild, but man has the ability to think. With this ability, man was always able to build and create the things that they need to survive.

The first hunters among us have created spears so that they could throw from a safe distance while the enemy would receive a massive blow. We also learned how to use it because it is one of the abilities of the brain. However this ability to throw would not be of use to us if not for the placement of our eyes. With both eyes placed in the front side of our heads, we are able to judge distance more than any other species on earth. This would allow us to throw our weapon to a precise target, to hit whatever it is that we are aiming for.

This is a fact known to many man in this world, but most of us fail to see is that this vision is not perfect. It is never in our nature to be perfect because we are created by the perfect God. If He would wished it, God could have easily place two more eyeballs at the back of our head for us to see what is behind us, but He does not. What is it than that God gave us to protect ourselves from attack from behind?

To that God gave us friendship. A friend is someone who would watch you back for any dangers that may come your way. As he watches your back, you too must do the same. That is why humans are stronger in a community, for the weakness of men could be mitigate by having each other. We solve our own problem, for no man can do anything alone not even the strongest among us.

There are many of us these days that live by ‘the survival of the fittest’ mentality that states that the strongest among us must trample upon the weak to survive. However if all man lend a helping hand to one another regardless of background, religion, race or nationality we are all fit therefore we will all survive.  No human is ever perfect but together we will be great enough to survive.

Therefore I would like to end this post by stating that all men are created equal and what you deserve, others deserve to have as well, like when Jean-Francois Cope said and I quote, “I invite everyone to choose forgiveness rather than division, togetherness rather than personal glory.”

A Light within the Dark

By: Abolqaz Bin Anuar

I stand in a time,

When the world is full of anarchy,

When men are so quick to judge to claim and to triumph,

That they leave behind their brothers and sisters in agony.

I stand in a place,

Where the light shines but we see only darkness,

Where the fallen are stepped on

Where evil reign supreme.

I see in us of the modern day,

A hunger for riches of gold,

A hunger for things untold,

A hunger that rips our souls

Through all this horror

I still see a light,

Shining bright in our heart,

The goodness that men possess,

But he has all forgot,

For whence he should remember again,

We all would be able to stand.

I would like to send a special shout out to Karen Belarek and Elise Khan, friends whom when I met them sometime before this told me that they have read my blog and that they liked it. I went “like whaaaaat?” I would also like to thank all those who actually read all these rubbish that I have posted. It is the legacy of me.

The Line Between Love & Hate

The lives of 9 billion human beings are governed everyday by forces, which are unseen to normal eyes. Forces such as gravity, momentum and speed govern the physical movement of all matter every single second. Whereas the force of human spirit guides the human soul to undertake challenges and obstacles that everyday life may present them. All force and spirits work according to their containment of their own laws but never contradicting one another in this thing I call life.

Among the forces that are constantly around us, none are more powerful than the force of love and hate. These are the dominant force among us and, when tempered with, may cause dangerous consequences to all mankind. Both love and hate, could inspire a person to do things way beyond what they are capable of. Both love and hate has the ability to inflict pain and suffering; and both love and hate is the main reason behind everything that we do.

There are four categories of this love-hate relationship. There is a positive love, negative love, positive hate, and a negative hate. A positive love is a love that is good and by doing it brings good things on to those who love it. A negative love however loves something bad, and by doing so brings suffering and pain to those who do love it. A positive hate is hating the bad things and by doing so keeps the person from being bad. Finally negative hate is hating that would invoke someone doing bad things to good and innocence.

In the world of today, many of us could not differentiate between love and hate. We often misunderstand these boundaries that stand in between them. This is understandable, as the line between love and hate is very thin and many always crossed it without knowing where they really stand. It is made even more difficult as many now takes the advantage of blurring this line so people could love and hate the wrong things.

Just imagine that war erupts because of a hatred of some towards others, but most fight to defend the things that they love.

The things gets worst of excessive love or hate is felt within. Too much of something is always bad. The only way then, for the situation to be dissolved is by letting go, letting go of all our hate and even our love. No one knows which between these two are the more powerful, but the only sure thing is, that those who toys with it are inviting trouble.  

Revolution of the Minds Not of the Body

By: Abolqaz Bin Anuar

It has only been almost a week since the 13^th general election of Malaysia was held last Sunday. Yet in these six days, Malaysian has now experience strange and alien events that locked our attention as a nation to this phenomenon. The election race that was the hardest to call in our history has bought about short term effects. This election was in best described as an epic battle, which at one point was too close to call. At the end of it, the ruling party of ‘Barisan Nasional’ had won the body of Malaysia with 133 seats to ‘Pakatan Rakyat’ 89 seats retain the right on paper to govern Malaysia for another 5 years. However the number of votes collectively went to ‘Pakatan Rakyat’ as 52% of the people voted for them but only 49% of the voters cast their ballots in ‘Barisan Nasional’s way, meaning that the hearts and mind of the people belonged to the ‘Pakatan Rakyat’.

These numbers that was publically shown was nothing more than statistics, information that tells us, the people of Malaysia that our country is now divided. With the modern day social media within our grapes Malaysian (mostly of the younger generation) has turn on each other in a war of words, and battle of wits, criticizing one another for their choices on the polling day. Sure you could not blame the social media for this for they are merely tools just like a gun and a hammer, for the flaw of every tool is its user.

The politicians did not do anything to deter this fast growing hate between the two sides of the fence; they even made it worst by throwing allegations towards each other instigating the crowd even more. Though I do believe that there were foul play involved during the 24 hours of the 5^th of May, but I cannot at this point prove any of it so this subject will be put aside at this moment. The headlines of the newspapers cause serious damage in the fragile stability of this nation and in the peace that Malaysia has enjoyed for so very long. Many do believe that the worst is yet to come, but the public being Malaysian are doing their very best to not let things get out of hand. This you could see from the activities that are currently circulating in ‘facebook’ and ‘twitter’. However many knows that they may now never look at a person in the same manner again as their political views has seemed to corrupt whatever friendship they had before.

As I sit here surrounded by the dark of the night, my mind began to recall the things that have been going on in this recent week. The event of the “Utusan headline” and the “805 Black Parade” has been laid down in my mind in a form of pattern, as I try to predict the events that might come. As a mere observer, I could not help but see nothing, but as a gifted student of history (as I would like to see myself) I could not help but notice that these patterns and events have appeared so many times before. Maybe not in Malaysia that I know of for sure (because the events of 13^th May 1969 is a topic many Malaysian would very much avoid), but it had happened throughout history so many times before. That is when I actually see what is really happening to my country.

Malaysia has been ruled by the same governmental party for the last 56 years. In that time, the government has imposed its way of thinking into the hearts and mind of Malaysian. For 56 years a single way of thinking, of right and wrong has been smeared into the minds of the people and it has stuck in many that the ‘Barisan Nasional’ way is the right way and the only way. However the thing about the phrase “too long” is that it becomes complacent. The BN leaders have corrupted their purpose and nature from what they once were, from what they had set out to do. It is not their fault it is the nature of the human being. If you are at a high place or in power for so long you tend to forget.

As a result of this lacklustre of the BN, some minds of the people has broken away from what is now tradition and old thinking of the government and has awaken from their sleep to a reality of what Malaysia really is. These few have spread the word of this terrible reality and day by day more and more people are joining this neo Malaysian thinking. Many of this new movement do not really understand what it really is, but they to have their versions and stories to what led them to the choice of neo Malaysian thinking, but one thing for certain was that from 2004 when this neo Malaysian thinking had first emerge till now 9 years later, many have come and awaken to this new revolution. Thus this is what truly happened on the 5^th of May; the collision of ideology of the old and the neo Malaysian. The neo Malaysians are fighting for a change and a new life in the ruling government, while those who still honour the old ways are fighting to preserve the old ways, the way it has always been.

I have seen this before this battle of the old versus the new. It happened in France during the revolution in 1789, and again in Japan during the ‘Meiji Restoration’ in 1868 again in Russia in 1917 and it is happening now as we speak in Syria. The only difference was this ‘Malaysian Tsunami’ as they have already branded it has not seen yet a single bloodshed. I tell you now my fellow Malaysians, no matter where our loyalty stands we must ensure ourselves that this change in Malaysia does not get out of hand. We must resist any provocations that would result in physical violence. If you want to continue your right to free speech that is fine by me, but remember to always check where does it end, where the limit lies. For if you do not remember that I could tell you what would happen, but I suggest that you read for yourself what happened in France, Japan Russia in those years, and see for yourself what is happening in Syria.

If anyone tells you that the accomplishment of your victory whatever the goal is could not be achieve without bloodshed, then I suggest you look again at how the fathers of this great nation gained independence for Malaya. It was without bloodshed. I hope for that handful who read this, spread the word to other Malaysians so that we could have our revolution in a peaceful manner. For those who do not know their history are bound to repeat it.

The Disappointment of Defeat

By: Abolqaz Bin Anuar

At 1:00am on the 6^th of May 2013, the result of the 13^th general election had emerged. The leading government of Barisan Nasional, has won the right to lead the country for the next five years. The loss of the Pakatan Rakyat has left a hole in my heart. A heart broken into millions pieces so small that it may pass through the eyes of a needle. I held my head in defeat and shame for my Malaysia has suffered a huge set back to the hands of their Malaysia. Worst the taunts and the smiles on the faces of the victors made everything harder to endure. We had fallen into a deep dark abyss, a bottomless pit of defeat with no end.

As I browse through the social networks of today, many of the fallen has express their hatred and anger in facebook and twitter. They are calling it a black out, as they too thought that Malaysia has fallen into darkness. Angry words that was exchanged by millions of the Malaysian youth in both twitter and facebook from 5.30pm till 1.00am is now gone, with only the taunts and remorseful words of those who feel at a high and those who had accepted the fate of our great nation.

Many who voted for change and a new government now sit at home wondering what will happen next. Where will we go from here? I too was troubled by those woeful questions till it came to me, and it for this revelation as much as a mortal mind could conjure that has bought me here to write this.

Dear Malaysian and those who seek freedom. Pakatan Rakyat has lost the election. It is true. We now need to sink in this fact in our heads right now, because we will fight again in five years. We are hurt, and beaten down I agree but the measure of our strength would never die if we all of us get rise up again and walk tall. Do not feel sad, for we gave a fight; a fight that hopefully will make them realize that Malaysian are free people. Hopefully they will thread carefully now knowing that we will be watching them like a hawk for the next five years.

Although I may think this but actually freedom will never die. As long as those who believe in it are willing to fight, with all their heart for every inch of it. Corruption will never stay hidden. All deeds especially those of the evil nature will always leave traces, and as free men we will find it if it ever comes.

How do you keep on fighting you might wonder, who it is do we keep on fighting if the battle has lost? Simply by living, we must live our lives each day in freedom. We must fight each day without fear doing justice and good to those who have been wronged. I guarantee you my friends if we do that, then this lost will not hurt us that much. We might have failed to ‘Ubah’ the government but we can still ‘Ubah’ ourselves. Uphold the values of the Pakatan Rakyat and they could not do anything to hurt us. However just know that when I say fight, I do not mean it in a physical sense. Fight spiritually and the truth will remain with us.

Many in the BN camp thinks that this lost has weaken the rakyat, I am here to tell you but it has made my resolve much stronger. By whatever truth that happens during the entire election, BN has won. Fine what is another 5 years compared to 56 years? Freedom is an idea and a progress of nature. They might stop us this time, but we will be back. They might have stolen our voice but we can still shout. They might have tied our hands but we can still move. The clock is ticking for BN and we will count every second to the next five years.

A lost like the one we had suffered tonight, I could only relate it to a bee sting. Being stung by a bee is painful at first, then it gets irritating, you are tempted to scratch it as much as you want, but if you do you will only make it worst. All you have to know that it will go away in time. Just like our suffering tonight will go away in time. They victors will taunt us, they have no class and so they will taunt us, but we must try our best to resist any temptation on anger and remain the better person, besides as I would know that qualities of ‘Our’ Malaysia states that we should not retaliate in anyway.

The only sad thing about it is, that because I voted for Pakatan Rakyat, this letter of comfort will always remain in silence and hidden from the public, except to those very few of us who will see this. To those who feel unjust by what has happened tonight, I swear to you things will get better. As Harvey Dent said before he went all evil, “the night is darkest before the dawn.” Also as a Malay I would like to tell my non-Malay friends that I hear you. Even though I have no idea how many other Malay heard what I heard but be ensure that this Malay does. I will do all I can to get you your rights, and equality even in the midst of a Pro-Malay nation. To me you are just as ‘bumiputera’ as all those who claim to be so. I applaud you for your perseverance.

Signing off, for beauty, freedom truth and love we have not truly lost, and never ever live in fear.

The Repercussion of Our Choice

By: Abolqaz Bin Anuar

In less than 3 days our nation would be embarking on a battle. This is not a physical battle, but merely a spiritual one. That may not sound right, but I assure you readers, that the outcome of this battle will determine more than just the rightful leaders of our Malaysian nation. It will determine the way of life, a path of which we will choose in less than 3 days’ time. The outcome of the 13th General Elections will be determined by us, for each hand that votes will write the history of our nation’s future.

Many years ago, the Sultans of Malaya made a choice. They choose to allow the British to come and rule over our land. However since many Malays refused to work for the oppressors, the British had no choice but to bring in two people from their nearest Asian colonies to come and work the land. These once immigrant who came mostly by force was forced to stay in a foreign land to work with great hardship. For a hundred years the British ruled over us, taking our land, our resources and our dignity. They divided the three races for divided people are much easier to rule. As the years past a war broke out in 1939. What happened in many miles away also had an effect on our forefathers. When the war came, the Brits showed us their true colours. They fled our land and forced us to fend for ourselves. After almost five years of Japanese occupation the brave few from all the races help to scurry the Japanese out of the land, and at that moment the Chinese and Indians ceased to become immigrants, they were already at that time in my eyes, our fellow countrymen.

After returning to Malaya, the British sought to tighten their control over the land by imposing the ‘Malayan Union’ marking this land as an official colony of the British Empire, but once again the ‘Malayan’ (Malayan does not mean Malays but the people who lived in Malaya) rose up together and opposed this proposal. We had figured then, that if we could fend of the Japanese, we could bloody well run our own country (as the Brits would put it). So we came together to impose a change in our way of life, from being oppressed we fought for change and voted for change and as we know on the 31^st of August 1957, we changed our own fate by forming a government that would take us into the future, Our own future.

We will always remember those Malayans, because of their action; with a stroke of a pen we formed a nation. “The greatest victory is one won without any bloodshed,” is the words of the great Sun Tzu and we in 1957 achieved this victory.

The repercussions of what the past chose to do, is now the reality of the present. By every move they make, every action they take and every word they said leads to this very moment in time, and it is now our time to write the story. The Malayans, who fought for independence many years ago, fight because they would like the future to be a better place. As a result Malaysia was born, giving our people a sense of identity. Giving us our nation, and while we are in it we know that we will live here as free men.

On the 5^th of May 2013, we must now embark on a journey just as they did. Search your soul for, your soul in the name of all that is good will tell you where to mark, or rather who to mark. Come Sunday, each ballot will have the potential to shape the future of our nation. Personally I would vote for change. I maybe young and speak thru my heart of youth and full of naive, but my heart only gives me the courage to act, while my brain gave me a reason to do so. I can think, and from what I see, the Barisan National government of today, are not the same as they once was. As all those who have been power for too long, they have become arrogant, complacent and corrupted. You either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the villain. However that is only me. I will not dwell much on this subject because this is not the point that I am trying to make.

All those who are able to vote, must do so because our choices are never our own. From the day we were born to the moment we die, our fate will always be tied with the fate of others. Those people who are bound with us lived in the past and those who will be born in the future. We are tied to the past as they had set the platform and the condition of the present. Just as how we will to the children of the future. Therefore come the election date, we must choose wisely, for there is no telling the consequences of our choices.

There will be many like myself who will be voting for the first time. It is only natural if we feel fear. For it is in the human nature to be afraid of the unknown. It is a mechanism of defence that our brain has imposed on our hearts. To that I say, seek wisdom to see what is right and what is wrong, and always muster every inch of our courage to do what is right. After all, the survival of all that is good and true has always demand for our courage. Where would we be if our fathers did not have the courage to fight for our freedom? Do not fear the lies and deceptions of men and devils, for whatever or however they plan to swerve you away from the truth, God could always easily trump them. Vote for whatever you think that is right, for if you do with a good heart and with hope for a better world, as God will have it, everything will be alright. No matter how crooked you may feel the world is, always know that good will always triumph against evil, and the truth for all the lies will in the end prevail.

I am not a man of stature; I have no title that says I am better than you. I write with the solemn heart knowing I am one of you. I bleed, breathe and eat as you do. I am a human, and I am a Malaysian.

The Question of the Day

Today I was ask a question. A guy of which i do not know, posed a question, and it went something like this, "How do I know, that this girl who I have been going out with is "the one" for me? Now the person who actually imposed this question (might I remind you) I do not know him. He is not even a 2nd degree of friend, probably the 3rd. I was ask through a friend, who asked through a friend. However I did answer the question and this was my answer:

Dear (name),

I understand that you have difficulties in knowing if a person is "the one" for you. Well in my opinion, i believe that such questions should not be asked to anyone else but yourself. No one knows what you know, or feel what you feel. This world is guided by so many forces beyond human understanding. Love like gravity is just a matter of law, but love has no Newton like figure, because no one could really understand it. It is the most dangerous as it is very tricky. However I could extend a hand by saying that even though the nature of love is hard to comprehend, but sometimes if you are honest with what you want, it will make it easy for you. As for knowing "the one", when you see her, you will know. It will instantly generate a strong gush of feelings. You will feel it throughout your entire body, you feel it in your hand, you feel it in your stomach and in your heart. It flow through you, emptying you and filling you all at once. The question it re-imposed back to you is this, have you ever felt like this about someone, if you have to think about it, then you have not felt it. This in all i could say about this subject. In my opinion. :)

Now I felt that it was a bit silly asking me, because I have yet found "the one" or felt the things that I had mentioned above myself; but deep inside of me knew that I had felt it, and I have let her go. So what now? Do I get a chance to feel it again? 

In one thing I was sure was that 'LOVE' is a bit more extensive then the understandings of gravity. This is because gravity is abstained by Newton, whereas the laws of love has time and time again proved the person who research about this things (I do not know what they are called)wrong. 

I choose to believe that the universe and all that is in it is controlled by God (Allah SWT), and If we do find ourselves in this sort of pickle only He could help. Remember when he took Adam's rib to create Eve, I believe that is one of the greatest move Allah has ever performed. He meant to let us all know that there is someone for all of us. A rib is a part of you and when you find your rib, it will make you whole again.

So I stand by what I said, that only you could know if this girl is "the one" for you because only you can know how you feel. 

While I was thinking on this subject, I also realized that the idea of marriage scares the 'bajeebeez' out of me. This is so because getting married would mean starting a family, and this seems to be a terrible sense of fear of commitment, and responsibility on my part. I then came to terms with it when I finally knew the answer right there in my head. The idea might seem terrible to me now, but when I finally meet "the one" all of my fear will be diminished and marriage will seem so much less scary. 

Every thing has always and will always be on you.

Approval Junkies

Greetings. I have not been posting any topic on this blog for a while, and for that I apologize. I have been quite busy, and on top of everything I seemed to have lost my muse in writing. It has been a while but I will try to make this blog consistently compatible with those that I had post before.

Recently I have been troubled by the thoughts of man and women. I was furthermore inspired by an article in today’s Star Newspaper about social media like ‘Instagram’ and ‘Facebook’ make more and more girls conscious about their appearance. I did not have a chance to read this article, but I do understand as much as I could from the headlines.

 Social consciousness is the many reasons why we do the things that we do. In truth, all of our actions is mostly done to please others. The clothes we wear, the way we act and all social activities we mostly partaken so that we feel belong, so that people take it that we are (in the modern slang) cool.

Speaking through experience, I will give you an example of what I mean. I had a friend who was one of the most beautiful girls I have ever met. She likes to party. I mean like the whole nine yards. In a club with loud techno music, alcohol and drugs. Now I did not realize it at the time, but I hate going to clubs. For one thing for a boy from Petaling Jaya like me, means that to go to these places, you need to drive all the way to Kuala Lumpur the big city. For a PJ boy (PJ is a short form for Petaling Jaya) it means long ass drive, you need to have some fuel in your car, tol expenses and of course parking. I was 22 to 23 years of age at the time. I did not even have a job yet at the time, it means no income, but I had to spend money in the club, sometimes to get in but mostly on expensive intoxicating drinks. To add the cherry on the top, I do not even like techno music that much. It is loud, full of pointless and annoying lyrics, and when you are in the club, you cannot have a conversation with someone. That is just how I am, I am the kind of person that measures the connection with a person, by the conversations I would have with them. I remember conversations. I can understand someone by talking to them, and this fact made me uncomfortable in a club.

It gets worst, after you had a few drinks, you mind is messed up. You cannot think straight. Nowadays I came to understand that a mind and its ability to make you think is the best gift from God or to me from Allah SWT. That is because throughout history, not many thing was certain, but one the reason why mankind had survived through whatever history has thrown at is mainly because of our ability to think, you can take away anything and everything from a man, but if he could think and think well, he will surely get back on his feet. However alcohol takes away this ability from a man. That is why; failures that turn alcoholic do not get back up on their feet. When you are drunk, it feels alright for a while you felt like the world is perfect and you are the king of the world bent on living forever. How could you have known that it actually makes you look like an idiot and made a fool of yourself when you have lost all ability of what is right and what is wrong.

You wake up the next day, with a massive headache that made you feel worst then you did before you had alcohol, you feel itchy all over your body, as a result of the alcohol and drug reaction, you open your wallet and realised that you had spent a lot of money on booze and drugs. It was fun the night before because all your senses was numb, but unless you are a freaking millionaire and I feel very safe to say that 99% of the people in the club last night was not, you felt bumped because you are now broke. The message of the story that I have written above was that, I did not like to party but I did it, just to get to her. After all that I still did not get the girl.

We are all doing things that we would necessary not want to do, for others. Now the story that I had portrayed was just an example a fraction. You think this will not apply to you, but think back. Why do we buy expensive shoes, admire expensive cars, try to live large? And the answer is so that others will see you as someone that Hollywood and MTV tricked you to see a celebrity. Living large, or living in the fast lane. The media and capitalist company have got you to chase things that you do not need. They show you a car, a beautiful but expensive cars and in those commercial, the guy who drove it has a beautiful girl beside it; and in seeing this they had programed our mind with the fiction that expensive cars will bring you beautiful girls, and this will automatically tell beautiful girls to go out and look for a guy with a great car.

In Islam it is said; that the three vices to a man, are women, wealth and children in that order. The reason why most people are not happy with the love that they get from their partners is because we all expect that all love life should be like the ones in the movies or tv, when in truth it is not. They also programmed us to think that you should date a hot smoking girl, but in truth a girl is only as beautiful as her heart is.  I see it now. I came to know that all those time wasted in chasing a beautiful girl was all a waste, and going out of your way to look as how Calvin Klien or TopShop tells you how to look are a waste of time. Trying to live the life like they sang on songs is a waste of time.

It is all in you. If you just open up and use your mind, it will come to you. All the things that you need are around you. Learn to appreciate yourself, rather that learning to make yourself so that others could appreciate you.

To vote, or not to vote?

In My Honest Opinion

It is now the year 2013. I have recently set foot on home soil this year from my trip to Europe. I wanted to clear my mind of a few things, though it did not serve me to the peak of it's purpose but none the less it somewhat had a rather positive effect on my mentality.

2013 is in Malaysia an election year, and for me personally my first time voting in Malaysia's General Election. A funny thing this because in my three weeks of travels, many had ask me, "where are you from?" Upon hearing "Malaysia" 7 out of 10 times they will reply with the phrase' "Malaysia, Truly Asia". On the surface of the world, we Malaysians project an image that we are representing what is best in all of Asia. However underneath it all, I believe true test lies ahead in our future, and 2013 could yet be a turning point of our nation's path. It is our rightful duty as Malaysians to cast a vote in our elections to see, who it is that we choose to lead us in the coming years. This may come as a very difficult choice for us or for me especially as I see no one fit to vote for.

Over the last year, scandals of unacceptable behavior loomed large on both camps of parties. These are the same parties that are now fighting for our affection so that we indeed cast a vote on their favor. In other words fighting for the helm of this nation, so that they could lead us. One thing we must realize is, who are they fighting for? Is it for them or for us? Because a true purpose of a government is to govern their people and not collect riches for themselves. Last year the 'Scorpion Submarine' scandal and the incident of the Ss7 Field made me realize that there are predators on both side of the river and they are waiting to pound on us, as soon we are on their side.

So, with that in mind who do we choose. Do we choose those who stole Billions from us, or those who stole hundred of millions from us? It really does not matter because either way, we are going to be eaten alive. No one in any party could convince me of their sincerity of actually intending to run for office for the sake of Malaysia and it's people. Don't be fooled by the BR1M because for one, where did they get the cash to give to people? And no other government in the world pays cash.

The point that I am trying to make is that Malaysia does not need an election, nor does it need the old government nor a new one at this point. What we need is a new structure. A new structure of governing, one that could not allow them any room to take a single bite, unless they truly deserve it. For that to happen a lot of issues that they say must be address.

The Malaysian people should have equal rights. This means that the 'Bumiputera' statues must be revoke or be expanded to non-Malays. This must be done. The word 'Bumi' directly means earth but it is mainly refer to land. 'Bumiputera' meaning the children of the land, and it's previllages was handed out to Malays and Aborigines because they were born from this land. This was true many years ago, but not right now. Many Chinese and Indians are born in Malaysia now. Their parents had settled here and they are born here not by their own choice. Never the less they are also 'Bumiputera' for they are also born in this land. Look at Dato' Lee Cheong Wei. He is a national icon, the whole country cheered for him every time he plays, but most Malays do not realize that our national hero, was denied certain rights in a country that he fights for. So to is Dato Nicol Davids, Dato Michelle Yeoh, Dato K. Rajagopal. All heroes of Malaysia all denied certain rights.

We are a Muslim country, and Islam is given to us by Allah SWT by the way of His Prophet Muhammad SAW. He too was a leader of Madina and Mecca. In Madina his people does not only consist of Muslims but also non-Muslims, yet He never denied them any rights of freedom, except the rights of going to war (and that is because His enemies only came to fight the Muslims). He proclaimed that Madina is for all who lived in it.

Any politician could offer this abolishment of the constitution wins my vote, but sadly no one did.

Government

The Government -- I heard about the Government and
I went out to find it. I said I would look closely at
it when I saw it.
Then I saw a policeman dragging a drunken man to
the callaboose. It was the Government in action.
I saw a ward alderman slip into an office one morning
and talk with a judge. Later in the day the judge
dismissed a case against a pickpocket who was a
live ward worker for the alderman. Again I saw
this was the Government, doing things.
I saw militiamen level their rifles at a crowd of
workingmen who were trying to get other workingmen
to stay away from a shop where there was a strike
on. Government in action.
Everywhere I saw that Government is a thing made of
men, that Government has blood and bones, it is
many mouths whispering into many ears, sending
telegrams, aiming rifles, writing orders, saying
"yes" and "no."
Government dies as the men who form it die and are laid
away in their graves and the new Government that
comes after is human, made of heartbeats of blood,
ambitions, lusts, and money running through it all,
money paid and money taken, and money covered
up and spoken of with hushed voices.
A Government is just as secret and mysterious and sensitive
as any human sinner carrying a load of germs,
traditions and corpuscles handed down from
fathers and mothers away back.

Carl Sandburg

European Post

Hello, to all my readers. I have not been writing for a while as I am currently in Europe or London to be exact. I had just returned from Amsterdam and currently drinking a tasty cup of 'hot chocolate'. I will write about my exploits in Europe in later post.




To kick off my first pot of the new year, is that of what I was thinking on the ferry which I took from Calais, France to Dover, England. I was thinking about love, or rather loneliness. I had a moment of reflection of the things that have been, and also thing that is to be, but the thought that dominated most in my mind was the thought of someone, the thought of 'the one'. I was thinking of Sarah

It was one of the reasons that i came to Europe, is to relieve my mind of her, so that when I returned home, she will be nothing more but a memory. But still the feelings that I have for her is still attached to me. I will let it go before I leave. One things comes to mind on the ferry was that when I thought about God, and all the prayers we ask of Him, I remembered, when I prayed to God, to sent me someone to love me.






I realised that God will not send her down to me on some plate or in a box all wrapped up and decorated with ribbons. What happens is that God will show you to her, He will lead you to her and when you see her, God will touch you in the heart to tell you, this is what you ask for. Then it is up to you to go up to her and get her.

But what if, what if you blew your chance with her? She is yours for the taking, but because the challenge is too hard or the timing is not right, for whatever reason, you blew it with her? She was the one for you and you ruined it with her, you fumbled and you failed. What then? what is there install for you. It scared me because for a moment there I thought you have missed your chance of happiness.

While I was in Europe, I had to be precise in certain timing to get to where I was going, I had no personal transport so I relied heavily on public transportations. Like when I am chasing the last train to Paddington, or when I was trying to catch my bus back to London, or the train to Amsterdam. Being alone made everything so much harder because I could only rely on myself. A single mistake would not only leave me stranded, but it will cost me a lot of money, on top of the money that I have wasted.

But sometimes shit happens. Like today, because of the change in platform at the Amsterdam Centraal, I took the wrong train, I was suppose to go to Amstel, but I ended up in Utreacht the next town near outside Amsterdam. I missed my bus at 7:00pm as my detour got me in Amstel half an hour late. When I got to the office, they told me I could still make the next one for an extra fee of €10. So I made the change.

The thing is that the bus will not be taking the train to London, but it will be boarding the ferry from Calais to Dover. I had always wanted to go to Dover, and see the white cliffs, but because of time restrictions, I had crossed it out of the place I am going to visit this time. But since I missed the bus at 7pm, I was able to see it. Sure it is dark and I could not take a picture of it, but I was there, in Dover looking ath the white cliffs.

Thanks to the designs of the European transport person, I was given something better then going through a dark tunnel. I was given a chance to see Dover. And that comforted me about the whole love thing. For if a man, or the combined brain of many man could come up with such rectification, I wonder what is in store for me by Allah SWT. For He can command anything and everything, and more perfect than the minds of men.

Maybe someone better or someone I was meant to be waa still in store for me. I can't say I know what is going to be, but when I get there, I will like the sight of it. Happy 2013 everybody!