The Line Between Love & Hate

The lives of 9 billion human beings are governed everyday by forces, which are unseen to normal eyes. Forces such as gravity, momentum and speed govern the physical movement of all matter every single second. Whereas the force of human spirit guides the human soul to undertake challenges and obstacles that everyday life may present them. All force and spirits work according to their containment of their own laws but never contradicting one another in this thing I call life.

Among the forces that are constantly around us, none are more powerful than the force of love and hate. These are the dominant force among us and, when tempered with, may cause dangerous consequences to all mankind. Both love and hate, could inspire a person to do things way beyond what they are capable of. Both love and hate has the ability to inflict pain and suffering; and both love and hate is the main reason behind everything that we do.

There are four categories of this love-hate relationship. There is a positive love, negative love, positive hate, and a negative hate. A positive love is a love that is good and by doing it brings good things on to those who love it. A negative love however loves something bad, and by doing so brings suffering and pain to those who do love it. A positive hate is hating the bad things and by doing so keeps the person from being bad. Finally negative hate is hating that would invoke someone doing bad things to good and innocence.

In the world of today, many of us could not differentiate between love and hate. We often misunderstand these boundaries that stand in between them. This is understandable, as the line between love and hate is very thin and many always crossed it without knowing where they really stand. It is made even more difficult as many now takes the advantage of blurring this line so people could love and hate the wrong things.

Just imagine that war erupts because of a hatred of some towards others, but most fight to defend the things that they love.

The things gets worst of excessive love or hate is felt within. Too much of something is always bad. The only way then, for the situation to be dissolved is by letting go, letting go of all our hate and even our love. No one knows which between these two are the more powerful, but the only sure thing is, that those who toys with it are inviting trouble.  

Revolution of the Minds Not of the Body

By: Abolqaz Bin Anuar

It has only been almost a week since the 13^th general election of Malaysia was held last Sunday. Yet in these six days, Malaysian has now experience strange and alien events that locked our attention as a nation to this phenomenon. The election race that was the hardest to call in our history has bought about short term effects. This election was in best described as an epic battle, which at one point was too close to call. At the end of it, the ruling party of ‘Barisan Nasional’ had won the body of Malaysia with 133 seats to ‘Pakatan Rakyat’ 89 seats retain the right on paper to govern Malaysia for another 5 years. However the number of votes collectively went to ‘Pakatan Rakyat’ as 52% of the people voted for them but only 49% of the voters cast their ballots in ‘Barisan Nasional’s way, meaning that the hearts and mind of the people belonged to the ‘Pakatan Rakyat’.

These numbers that was publically shown was nothing more than statistics, information that tells us, the people of Malaysia that our country is now divided. With the modern day social media within our grapes Malaysian (mostly of the younger generation) has turn on each other in a war of words, and battle of wits, criticizing one another for their choices on the polling day. Sure you could not blame the social media for this for they are merely tools just like a gun and a hammer, for the flaw of every tool is its user.

The politicians did not do anything to deter this fast growing hate between the two sides of the fence; they even made it worst by throwing allegations towards each other instigating the crowd even more. Though I do believe that there were foul play involved during the 24 hours of the 5^th of May, but I cannot at this point prove any of it so this subject will be put aside at this moment. The headlines of the newspapers cause serious damage in the fragile stability of this nation and in the peace that Malaysia has enjoyed for so very long. Many do believe that the worst is yet to come, but the public being Malaysian are doing their very best to not let things get out of hand. This you could see from the activities that are currently circulating in ‘facebook’ and ‘twitter’. However many knows that they may now never look at a person in the same manner again as their political views has seemed to corrupt whatever friendship they had before.

As I sit here surrounded by the dark of the night, my mind began to recall the things that have been going on in this recent week. The event of the “Utusan headline” and the “805 Black Parade” has been laid down in my mind in a form of pattern, as I try to predict the events that might come. As a mere observer, I could not help but see nothing, but as a gifted student of history (as I would like to see myself) I could not help but notice that these patterns and events have appeared so many times before. Maybe not in Malaysia that I know of for sure (because the events of 13^th May 1969 is a topic many Malaysian would very much avoid), but it had happened throughout history so many times before. That is when I actually see what is really happening to my country.

Malaysia has been ruled by the same governmental party for the last 56 years. In that time, the government has imposed its way of thinking into the hearts and mind of Malaysian. For 56 years a single way of thinking, of right and wrong has been smeared into the minds of the people and it has stuck in many that the ‘Barisan Nasional’ way is the right way and the only way. However the thing about the phrase “too long” is that it becomes complacent. The BN leaders have corrupted their purpose and nature from what they once were, from what they had set out to do. It is not their fault it is the nature of the human being. If you are at a high place or in power for so long you tend to forget.

As a result of this lacklustre of the BN, some minds of the people has broken away from what is now tradition and old thinking of the government and has awaken from their sleep to a reality of what Malaysia really is. These few have spread the word of this terrible reality and day by day more and more people are joining this neo Malaysian thinking. Many of this new movement do not really understand what it really is, but they to have their versions and stories to what led them to the choice of neo Malaysian thinking, but one thing for certain was that from 2004 when this neo Malaysian thinking had first emerge till now 9 years later, many have come and awaken to this new revolution. Thus this is what truly happened on the 5^th of May; the collision of ideology of the old and the neo Malaysian. The neo Malaysians are fighting for a change and a new life in the ruling government, while those who still honour the old ways are fighting to preserve the old ways, the way it has always been.

I have seen this before this battle of the old versus the new. It happened in France during the revolution in 1789, and again in Japan during the ‘Meiji Restoration’ in 1868 again in Russia in 1917 and it is happening now as we speak in Syria. The only difference was this ‘Malaysian Tsunami’ as they have already branded it has not seen yet a single bloodshed. I tell you now my fellow Malaysians, no matter where our loyalty stands we must ensure ourselves that this change in Malaysia does not get out of hand. We must resist any provocations that would result in physical violence. If you want to continue your right to free speech that is fine by me, but remember to always check where does it end, where the limit lies. For if you do not remember that I could tell you what would happen, but I suggest that you read for yourself what happened in France, Japan Russia in those years, and see for yourself what is happening in Syria.

If anyone tells you that the accomplishment of your victory whatever the goal is could not be achieve without bloodshed, then I suggest you look again at how the fathers of this great nation gained independence for Malaya. It was without bloodshed. I hope for that handful who read this, spread the word to other Malaysians so that we could have our revolution in a peaceful manner. For those who do not know their history are bound to repeat it.

The Disappointment of Defeat

By: Abolqaz Bin Anuar

At 1:00am on the 6^th of May 2013, the result of the 13^th general election had emerged. The leading government of Barisan Nasional, has won the right to lead the country for the next five years. The loss of the Pakatan Rakyat has left a hole in my heart. A heart broken into millions pieces so small that it may pass through the eyes of a needle. I held my head in defeat and shame for my Malaysia has suffered a huge set back to the hands of their Malaysia. Worst the taunts and the smiles on the faces of the victors made everything harder to endure. We had fallen into a deep dark abyss, a bottomless pit of defeat with no end.

As I browse through the social networks of today, many of the fallen has express their hatred and anger in facebook and twitter. They are calling it a black out, as they too thought that Malaysia has fallen into darkness. Angry words that was exchanged by millions of the Malaysian youth in both twitter and facebook from 5.30pm till 1.00am is now gone, with only the taunts and remorseful words of those who feel at a high and those who had accepted the fate of our great nation.

Many who voted for change and a new government now sit at home wondering what will happen next. Where will we go from here? I too was troubled by those woeful questions till it came to me, and it for this revelation as much as a mortal mind could conjure that has bought me here to write this.

Dear Malaysian and those who seek freedom. Pakatan Rakyat has lost the election. It is true. We now need to sink in this fact in our heads right now, because we will fight again in five years. We are hurt, and beaten down I agree but the measure of our strength would never die if we all of us get rise up again and walk tall. Do not feel sad, for we gave a fight; a fight that hopefully will make them realize that Malaysian are free people. Hopefully they will thread carefully now knowing that we will be watching them like a hawk for the next five years.

Although I may think this but actually freedom will never die. As long as those who believe in it are willing to fight, with all their heart for every inch of it. Corruption will never stay hidden. All deeds especially those of the evil nature will always leave traces, and as free men we will find it if it ever comes.

How do you keep on fighting you might wonder, who it is do we keep on fighting if the battle has lost? Simply by living, we must live our lives each day in freedom. We must fight each day without fear doing justice and good to those who have been wronged. I guarantee you my friends if we do that, then this lost will not hurt us that much. We might have failed to ‘Ubah’ the government but we can still ‘Ubah’ ourselves. Uphold the values of the Pakatan Rakyat and they could not do anything to hurt us. However just know that when I say fight, I do not mean it in a physical sense. Fight spiritually and the truth will remain with us.

Many in the BN camp thinks that this lost has weaken the rakyat, I am here to tell you but it has made my resolve much stronger. By whatever truth that happens during the entire election, BN has won. Fine what is another 5 years compared to 56 years? Freedom is an idea and a progress of nature. They might stop us this time, but we will be back. They might have stolen our voice but we can still shout. They might have tied our hands but we can still move. The clock is ticking for BN and we will count every second to the next five years.

A lost like the one we had suffered tonight, I could only relate it to a bee sting. Being stung by a bee is painful at first, then it gets irritating, you are tempted to scratch it as much as you want, but if you do you will only make it worst. All you have to know that it will go away in time. Just like our suffering tonight will go away in time. They victors will taunt us, they have no class and so they will taunt us, but we must try our best to resist any temptation on anger and remain the better person, besides as I would know that qualities of ‘Our’ Malaysia states that we should not retaliate in anyway.

The only sad thing about it is, that because I voted for Pakatan Rakyat, this letter of comfort will always remain in silence and hidden from the public, except to those very few of us who will see this. To those who feel unjust by what has happened tonight, I swear to you things will get better. As Harvey Dent said before he went all evil, “the night is darkest before the dawn.” Also as a Malay I would like to tell my non-Malay friends that I hear you. Even though I have no idea how many other Malay heard what I heard but be ensure that this Malay does. I will do all I can to get you your rights, and equality even in the midst of a Pro-Malay nation. To me you are just as ‘bumiputera’ as all those who claim to be so. I applaud you for your perseverance.

Signing off, for beauty, freedom truth and love we have not truly lost, and never ever live in fear.

The Repercussion of Our Choice

By: Abolqaz Bin Anuar

In less than 3 days our nation would be embarking on a battle. This is not a physical battle, but merely a spiritual one. That may not sound right, but I assure you readers, that the outcome of this battle will determine more than just the rightful leaders of our Malaysian nation. It will determine the way of life, a path of which we will choose in less than 3 days’ time. The outcome of the 13th General Elections will be determined by us, for each hand that votes will write the history of our nation’s future.

Many years ago, the Sultans of Malaya made a choice. They choose to allow the British to come and rule over our land. However since many Malays refused to work for the oppressors, the British had no choice but to bring in two people from their nearest Asian colonies to come and work the land. These once immigrant who came mostly by force was forced to stay in a foreign land to work with great hardship. For a hundred years the British ruled over us, taking our land, our resources and our dignity. They divided the three races for divided people are much easier to rule. As the years past a war broke out in 1939. What happened in many miles away also had an effect on our forefathers. When the war came, the Brits showed us their true colours. They fled our land and forced us to fend for ourselves. After almost five years of Japanese occupation the brave few from all the races help to scurry the Japanese out of the land, and at that moment the Chinese and Indians ceased to become immigrants, they were already at that time in my eyes, our fellow countrymen.

After returning to Malaya, the British sought to tighten their control over the land by imposing the ‘Malayan Union’ marking this land as an official colony of the British Empire, but once again the ‘Malayan’ (Malayan does not mean Malays but the people who lived in Malaya) rose up together and opposed this proposal. We had figured then, that if we could fend of the Japanese, we could bloody well run our own country (as the Brits would put it). So we came together to impose a change in our way of life, from being oppressed we fought for change and voted for change and as we know on the 31^st of August 1957, we changed our own fate by forming a government that would take us into the future, Our own future.

We will always remember those Malayans, because of their action; with a stroke of a pen we formed a nation. “The greatest victory is one won without any bloodshed,” is the words of the great Sun Tzu and we in 1957 achieved this victory.

The repercussions of what the past chose to do, is now the reality of the present. By every move they make, every action they take and every word they said leads to this very moment in time, and it is now our time to write the story. The Malayans, who fought for independence many years ago, fight because they would like the future to be a better place. As a result Malaysia was born, giving our people a sense of identity. Giving us our nation, and while we are in it we know that we will live here as free men.

On the 5^th of May 2013, we must now embark on a journey just as they did. Search your soul for, your soul in the name of all that is good will tell you where to mark, or rather who to mark. Come Sunday, each ballot will have the potential to shape the future of our nation. Personally I would vote for change. I maybe young and speak thru my heart of youth and full of naive, but my heart only gives me the courage to act, while my brain gave me a reason to do so. I can think, and from what I see, the Barisan National government of today, are not the same as they once was. As all those who have been power for too long, they have become arrogant, complacent and corrupted. You either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the villain. However that is only me. I will not dwell much on this subject because this is not the point that I am trying to make.

All those who are able to vote, must do so because our choices are never our own. From the day we were born to the moment we die, our fate will always be tied with the fate of others. Those people who are bound with us lived in the past and those who will be born in the future. We are tied to the past as they had set the platform and the condition of the present. Just as how we will to the children of the future. Therefore come the election date, we must choose wisely, for there is no telling the consequences of our choices.

There will be many like myself who will be voting for the first time. It is only natural if we feel fear. For it is in the human nature to be afraid of the unknown. It is a mechanism of defence that our brain has imposed on our hearts. To that I say, seek wisdom to see what is right and what is wrong, and always muster every inch of our courage to do what is right. After all, the survival of all that is good and true has always demand for our courage. Where would we be if our fathers did not have the courage to fight for our freedom? Do not fear the lies and deceptions of men and devils, for whatever or however they plan to swerve you away from the truth, God could always easily trump them. Vote for whatever you think that is right, for if you do with a good heart and with hope for a better world, as God will have it, everything will be alright. No matter how crooked you may feel the world is, always know that good will always triumph against evil, and the truth for all the lies will in the end prevail.

I am not a man of stature; I have no title that says I am better than you. I write with the solemn heart knowing I am one of you. I bleed, breathe and eat as you do. I am a human, and I am a Malaysian.